Loneliness

I don't know why I bother, but I still do. Ah well, its so hard. I want it, but I want it to be like no questions asked. Why is it so hard for someone to just show up? Argh. Really, I may not look like it, but I could be the loneliest person on earth. Sigh, if only you knew. How I hurt to make you laugh, and then I laugh too, just to forget. How I laugh to forget, but how I get hurt to remember... Friendship is a total coal mine. You want to get more coal, but yet you hate going in and out at the same time. Because your life is always at risk. How you want more, but you hate the fact that others have it, but you don't. The fact that you get stuck in the middle so many times it hurts. The fact that all your hard work will just get washed down the drain if the other party decides you dump you. It hurts you know? Everytime I think of it, I just want to scream or cry, but I can't, because then It'll be obvious, won't it?

Well, enough of that emo talk... I'm like going to the better news. PL CONCERT BAND got a SILVER for SYF! yay us (: we totally thought we were going to get a Bronze x: so scary. Guess what o: RI got silver also! can you believe that? They played so awesomely well! I cannot believe it! oh well, whats over is over. Now I just wish all the other performing arts CCA's to JIAYOU! :D Well, I have nothing much to blog because I totally forgot everything when the thought ON TOP came to mind. Hiax. Oh. One thing (: Deborah is marrying Sherie! well, that is, if we get her to say "I DO" haha :D well, good luck on that! I kinda don't want to be involved in it X: haha. okay. thats all!

To all the people I owe presents to, I'LL GET THEM ASAP kay?!?


CHARmonkee
sometimes I don't understand how words can make a difference, positive or negative.
its so good for them, but it hurts so bad for me. why? this just sucks.
why is this so messed up? what did I do wrong that I have to face this?